Lisa-Marie, I wonder if perhaps lack of self-confidence rather than lack of self-worth is what you experienced. I returned to college as a single mother at the age of 27 and it took me almost 5 years to finish. I couldn't take musical dictation to save my soul and a piano teacher at the school destroyed any hope of my being able to play. The only thing that I could do really well was sing with emotion and hear and internalize other singers voices. I felt terribly inferior to the other students who were fresh out of high school with long instrumental backgrounds and plenty of choral experience to make them good sightreaders(anoher skill I had lots of trouble with). But I did have experience living in the real world which I think helped in my singing(interpretively spseaking.) I chose to teach privately so I could be home with my little boy. I'm nearly 52 now and often wonder if I could have done something more with my singing. I guess what I'm trying to say is that at 30 you are by no means over the hill in any way. Now you have the maturity of understanding life more fully than any of those"young wippersnappers." That experience will add to your singing. I hope I made sense, besides, allowing yourself to be"consumed" by jealousy and bitterness will only stand in your way. The only person you can "let down" or disappoint is yourself. Think positive! Anne C.
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