Melinda! What kind of relationship do you have with your teacher? Is it a collaboration? Friendship? Guru and follower? Czar and peasant? If you are frightened to face your teacher, I would question if you have a good working relationship. If you and your teacher are on friendly terms, then why would s/he be so upset that you bombed an audition? It's not his/her audition, it was yours, no matter who sent you on it. Everyone has bad auditions. Everyone embarrasses themselves once in awhile. It's a part of being a performer. I know this is going to sound cold, but you just have to suck it up and move on. Directors have seen bad auditions. No one is going to hate you because you messed up once. And you must think of the progress you've made. Sure, everyone makes a few faltering steps when they are trying to make progress, but you can't let a set back halt going forward. What specifically went wrong with your audition? Go to the practice room and work on it if it's something musical. If it's nerves, stand in front of a mirror and practice what you are going to do when you walk into the audition room or read up on relaxation exercises. Whatever it was, work on it. And remember---no one hates you for messing up once. If you need to ask forgivness of yourself, do it and forgive yourself. Get over it and keep moving forward.
Good luck in the future, Trevor --- Imthurn Melinda <mimthurn@y...> wrote: --- Imthurn Melinda <mimthurn@y...> wrote: > > ... is what recently happened to me. How do any of > you keep your chins up when something like this > happens? > > This was especially traumatic for me because: > > 1. I worked for many years to get my performance > anxiety under control. I have made wonderful > achievements in this area. It has not been as big a > problem as this for many years, so I feel that this > was a HUGE step backwards, which is discouraging. I > have not had the desire to open my mouth to sing > since. > > 2. My teacher sent me to this audition. I REALLY > embarassed myself. I have since been unable to > sleep > at times because I feel so humiliated and like I > have > let her down. > > 3. This was not a particularly important audition > for > me at all, so it doesn't even make sense that I was > so > traumatized by it. > > I must say that I have had auditions in the past > that > have not been pretty, but I really did take the cake > on this one. I am quite discouraged and, as I said, > do not have the desire to sing or to face my > teacher! > It has been almost two weeks! Help!!!! > > __________________________________________________ >
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